Original Lyrics

Because I've gotten a request for these lyrics, here they are. (: "I Want You To Be The One", by, well, me.

I live for the moments when our lives cross paths.
Is it too much to hope that I cross your mind?
Cause I can’t find the words to tell you
The thought of you brings my heart sunshine.
I want you to be the one to call me beautiful.
Make me realize not everyone’s the same.
I want you to be the one I’ve waited for forever.
I want to go crazy and scream your name.
I want you to be the one to love me.
Can you be the prince, cause I’m not always the princess.
I’m selfish; I’m clumsy, I regret to confess.
But I’ll love you forever, if you can deal with my worst.
I’ll show you my very best, can’t help but put you first.
Because I want you to be the one to call me beautiful.
Make me realize not everyone’s the same.
I want you to be the one I’ve waited for forever.
I want to go crazy and scream your name.
I want you to be the one to love me.
You make me want  to touch the sky
And when I close my eyes you’re all I see.
I’m a drizzle and you’re a hurricane,
But everything you do enchants me…
I want you to be the one to call me beautiful.
Make me realize not everyone’s the same.
I want you to be the one I’ve waited for forever.
I want to go crazy and scream your name.
I want you to be the one to love me…
I want you to be the one.

Extreme Excitement

For a number of reasons. (:
but first- song of the day:   All that you are, by the goo goo dolls. <3
but anyway, reasons why i'm excited. the first one i'm going to talk about is my teen ink account. i signed up about a month ago, thinking that it'd just be a fun place to post my writing. i soon learned that you can link to videos that you already put on youtube. i have some videos of me singing, and decided to submit them. well, the response has been pretty exciting. it's nothing anywhere near explosive, but it's pretty amazing to see all these people i don't even know commenting on my videos and liking them... someone even favorited one of them. i think i understand why i've always wanted to do this with my life now. this positive response to something so important to me... it's incredible. (: here's a link, if you care to look.
http://teenink.com/users/thesidewalkendshere
the second is something you'll probably hear me go on and on about later... considering how i use this blog as an emotional outlet and all. but let's just say i've found a pair of green eyes i can absolutely drown in, and the owner of them happens to also be the owner of my first kiss (EVER), and also happens to be coming over tomorrow. (:
the third is significantly more simple: TANGLED tonight with madre. <3 and easy a... and burlesque.... asdfghjkl, i love movie nights, this is gonna rock my socks.
OH and fourth, i actually live in a ROOM again. new carpet, all of stuff's unpacked... pretty wonderful, all in all.
so yeah. philosophy for today: dr.pepper and a hot bath can fix any ailment. mom and i were discussing this today. if you get a dr.pepper, take a hot bath, eat some bean with bacon soup and sourdough toast, and get a good night's sleep, everything will be significantly better in the morning.
sounds crazy, right? but it's always worked for me. maybe the placebo effect? haha. well, whatever, if it works, it works~.

random babbling, because i am TIRED.

song of the day: forever and ever- pooh bear. <3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zS5TYzSPpII
listen. it's SO CUTE. ((:
okay, so, road trip news. we ended up in highlands, nc. it was so beautiful up there- the mountains, and the rain... almost ethereal. which almost made up for the fact that we did nothing other than price check the whole place for when he comes back to it later this month with his girlfriend. i mean, in a way, i feel like i'm being selfish. he's obviously really into this girl and wants it to work out. but she gets to see him like every day, and i don't. we certainly only go on trips like this maybe once a year. and i don't know. i just feel like that was the whole point of the trip, and i didn't know it until we got in the car and started driving. like, i just kind of tagged along as he looked at hotels and restaurants and took a bunch of pictures. i mean, it wasn't a bad trip, and i'm glad i got to see everything. but it didn't feel like his purpose was to spend time with me. and that wasn't even the worst part. but that's something i don't want to post on the internet, so ask away if the curiosity eats at you. god, i feel like i'm whining. but i don't know, it just kind of bummed me out, and i wanted to talk about it. x button's in the top right hand corner. in other news: mr.popper's penguins was ADORABLE. i mean, not the best movie i've EVER seen, but still pretty darn cute. <3 & we FINALLY got new carpet in the house, after a month of having our stuff in boxes. it's so pretty. (: so a majority of today was spent unpacking, and dusting. oh my god, dusting. bluck. never want to see dust, ever again. and i'm not even all the way done, hahaha. oh my, i'll be glad when it's all done. rearranging everything is nice, but tiring.
okay, so, preview of the new song i'm working on. here's the chorus:
So I lie here smelling like smoke and sunsets
I never feel more wonderful than when I’m sitting next to you
Melodies floating on the summer air
It’s enough of a lie to make me want to forget the truth.
We can’t make it when we always seem to break it.
But tonight’s enough to make me want to fake it.

Waiting to head out for godknowswhere

(: dad will be by in about half an hour. i wonder where we'll end up this time? we're free spirits- one time we ended up in nyc. 3 days, a TON of driving. but incredible. (: probably won't be that far this time, because i have to be back thursday for an acda thing, but still somewhere interesting. i love travelling- i love seeing new places and experiencing new things. a dream of mine is to take a year after i graduate college and just go places. sort of like eat pray love, just discover myself. see the world by myself, and go places where no one knows me- where no one has any expectations. i feel so often like i end up molding myself to whoever i'm with, and while it's actually a useful skill to have, it's not always good. i need to be myself sometimes, not what other people want to see. and i feel like i can do that while i'm away from home. don't get me wrong. i love all of my friends and family, so much. and i love spending time with them. it's not their fault i mold- that's just my natural instinct. but there was this book i read, shift. it talked about going away for a while- not forever, but long enough so that no matter where you are, you can be the best, most real version of yourself. and i like that. i want that. because in reality, i am so, so, so vulnerable. i think everyone is, to a extent. things hurt us a great deal more than we let on. litte things, probably more than big things.we have to figure out ways to shield ourselves- some more than others. and temporary shields don't work. we end up hurting or confusing ourselves even more. that's why people go on soul searching journeys, like the one i want. to discover the part of themselves that's stronger than what people say or do. the part that's stronger than anything that happens. the part that says "it's going to get better." i don't know, i just wanted to ramble a bit before i leave, and this is what's on my mind.

I have at least one person who reads my blogs~~~

which sorta kinda makes my entire life, because this person is fantastic. <3 i've decided a new thing i'm going to do is a 'song of the day', which is whatever song i happen to be obsessed with at the moment. today is sure feels right, by sixx am. because music is something so universal, there's bound to be something worth listening to eventually. (: i'm also going to give you guys a link to my tumblr, because if you get on there more than you get on here, i do feed this to that. however, it's a reblog site, and some of the stuff i reblog has questionable language. parental advisory, possible explicit content. http://thisiskaramichelle.tumblr.com/
so, today was the 4th. which means there was the mandatory cookout at my grandmother's house. actually pretty fun... i managed to get some sun in at the pool, even if i did have to listen to my stepdad's questionable medical diagnosis of himself. does anyone know if drinking milk before bed can actually clog your sinuses and make you dizzy in the morning? it just seems implausible to me, but hey. whatever. in other news, i had the sex talk with my mom today. basically consisted of her telling me premarital sex was bad, but if i was having it to please tell her so she can talk me out of it and/or possibly get me birth control, and me repeating that "mom, yeah, i'm still a virgin and it's probably gonna stay that way for a while... no, mom, really, i'm not having sex. no, mom, i'm not, don't worry. mooommmmmm. i get it. but i'm not having sex." it was something along the lines of mortifying. i know she's trying to help, but that doesn't make it any less awkward.  *facepalm*. so anywayy. i'm embarking on an overnight trip to godknowswhere tomorrow with my dad. i'm actually pretty excited. i love roadtrips... listening to music, watching the world pass by. it really just gives me time to think about things. sort out my life, you know? the only downside is the hour or so i'm going to be obligated to listen to middle aged men on talk radio preaching at me about how america's going to hell. i hate politics.all anyone ever does is argue about them. VOTE AND SHUT UPPP. unless you intend to start a revolution, there's nothing else to do. or else get a blog for your moaning, so that when people get sick of you, they can x out of the screen. <3 sorry, patience meter's running low today, my head feels gross. my head hurts, my throat is sore, and i can barely breathe. perhaps when we're done renovating the house and all this dust is gone, i'll be a much nicer person all around. hahaha. well. we'll see. i am trying. :P. since i don't happen to have a lesson of any sorts to discuss today, i'll just pick some poetry for you guys to meditate on. (:
Disappear(by:karamichelle)
what would it be like
to disappear?
just
slip
away
from everything familiar
and experience something
...new?
keep moving
until you figure out the mystery
of where you're going
and stay for a while
maybe not
forever
but just long enough to ready yourself
for another journey.

YAY~~ blogger works on my computer again. (:

and i intend to start blogging regularly again... or at least try to. It's important to me to be able to have a release- i tend to bottle emotions until i can't take it anymore, and that... well, sucks. plus, it makes me feel important to share my day with my hypothetical readers. the fact that nobody ACTUALLY reads this isn't really a deterrent to me- a hypothetical audience will never judge me. (:  so i'm still going to write like i'm talking to hundreds of people. so. onto the actual blogging. i got to hang out with one of my fantastic friends today. he told me all about his month long trip to france and germany, which seemed incredible. if i go missing, i'm backpacking through europe. <3 then, i got home, and i've been in bed reading ever since. hey, i have 10 library books to get through. (which if you know me at all, is nothing. they'll be finished before the week is.) the best so far is called 'nothing'. it's by janne teller, and it's thought provoking and philosophical and terrifying all at once- perfect for the thunderstorm going on outside my window. <3 but, with all this lying in bed reading, i've come to realize that lazy days are the best- bruno mars knows what he's talking about.  even if i can't afford to take more than one every six months or so- too much to do. college to prepare for, exercising to do, boyfriend and friends to hang out with. etc. but nice when they happen. on a side note- i was loking through my old computer documents and found some poetry we had to write for english last year. i worked with a partner, tianna (see her blog here: http://inmyskin95.blogspot.com/ ) and going back reading these, they seem pretty legit. (: so, here they are, for your enjoyment. the first one, we had to personify... something. we picked wind, because this poem could be a metaphor as well.

Evil Wind
The wind is out to get me
He’s beating at my door
His hands are tearing at my house
He’s always wanting more
The wind screams past my window
My terror is his glee
But my house is well secured
And he won’t get to me

and for the second one, we had to write 'stopping by woods on a snowy evening' from a different point of view. seeing as we both have a flair for the soap opera dramatics, this was from th view of someone who was depressed.

Stopping by the Woods On A Snowy Evening
Whose woods are these I think I know
To reach his home is far to go
He will not see me disappear
To stand amidst the ice and sorrow

My somber horse, although sincere
Must be aware there’s nothing here
But water, woods, silent ache
The darkest evening of the year

He shakes his bells, the night awakes
that I am here is no mistake 
My heart feels nothing, long asleep
But healing wind and soothing flake

These woods my secrets long will keep
But I have promises to keep
And I no longer want to sleep 
And I no longer want to sleep.