and i feel like the song of the day should be called the song of the week, SO, here we go,
sotw: i don't mind- defeater
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J1IdKeZU8hs&feature=BFa&list=FLzxayHbZlkcY&index=11
because it's emily dickinson ADORABLE. <3
i had a few ideas for this blog, and i'll get to them, but there's something i kind of want to muse about. and it's this whole relationship thing... everyone knows i suck at it. like, everyone. it's like, i don't think i've ever been in a relationship that lasted over 2 months. and yeah, i'm usually the one who breaks it off. there are a whole bunch of psychological reasons for that, but i don't even want to get into them today. i mean, everyone thinks i'll eventually get over it. hell, even i think that. usually. but i was thinking about it today, and i don't even know how i'm supposed to get married. i'm terrified of it, really. cause i look around and see all these married couples, and you know what? something like 95% of them don't even like each other anymore. they bicker and fuss or ignore each other. they tolerate each other because they're already married. but let me be honest: i don't get the point of that. i do not want to get married to someone just to end up tolerating them later on. what's the point? i can live by myself. or buy a dog or something. and i'd be perfectly happy. i like not having to answer to anyone. i like being home alone and blasting my music or deciding what to watch on tv or cleaning or not cleaning when i feel like it. i like being able to plan my schedule around me and, if i feel like it, just taking off for the weekend to somewhere. maybe in that sense, i'm selfish, but whatever. it's how i am. i just don't see the point in living with someone you don't even like. it's kinda like, why bother? don't get me wrong, i like human relationships. if my life could be like the notebook and i knew for sure that i was going to love and talk to the person i marry until the day i die, that would be one thing. but it just never seems to work like that. like, the strain of daily life and work and kids takes over. just, ugh. sometimes i want to disappear.
but anyway. enough rambling. on to less depressing subjects.
I MADE ONE ACT.
asdfghjkl, i am so super duper excited. <3 i play a moronic valley girl, and it is much to my chagrin that i can do it so well. XD kevin says he's never gonna talk to me again if i get stuck talking like that like i did with dearly departed... who would have guessed that cultivated southern accents linger? but WHATEVER BRO, you're my bestfriend, you gotta put up with me.
oh, speaking of kevin, he showed me the most awesome movie ever. wristcutters, a love story. which is not nearly as emo as you would think, but is actually adorable and hilarious and well thought out. it's on netflix, if anyone has that.
i also maybe have a job? at a mexican restaurant... the manager person seems to like me, so i'm going to apply and see where that goes. as if i need any more demands on my schedule, buthey. i could use the extra $$$ and it teaches responsibility and such. you know, all that good stuff.
oh, and coolest part of today- weightwatchers is paying off. i can fit into my dress~~~~ oh my god, i'm so excited. i've never been able to get into this dress without squeezing and sucking in, but today i just put it on and zipped up the back. <3 it made my LIFE. (especially due to the fact that i have to wear this particular dress to a disney dance with boyfriend in about 10 days... it's nice that i can get it on without asphyxiating.) but then again, it SUCKS cause we're doing a cheesecake sale in chorus, and i WANT SOME. )): cause it looks delicious. if anyone wants to buy cheesecake or awesome fluffy pretzels, you know where to find me.
so anyway, it's late, and i have a chorus officer poster to make. i might elaborate on some of this tomorrow, but we'll see.
sotw: i don't mind- defeater
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J1IdKeZU8hs&feature=BFa&list=FLzxayHbZlkcY&index=11
because it's emily dickinson ADORABLE. <3
i had a few ideas for this blog, and i'll get to them, but there's something i kind of want to muse about. and it's this whole relationship thing... everyone knows i suck at it. like, everyone. it's like, i don't think i've ever been in a relationship that lasted over 2 months. and yeah, i'm usually the one who breaks it off. there are a whole bunch of psychological reasons for that, but i don't even want to get into them today. i mean, everyone thinks i'll eventually get over it. hell, even i think that. usually. but i was thinking about it today, and i don't even know how i'm supposed to get married. i'm terrified of it, really. cause i look around and see all these married couples, and you know what? something like 95% of them don't even like each other anymore. they bicker and fuss or ignore each other. they tolerate each other because they're already married. but let me be honest: i don't get the point of that. i do not want to get married to someone just to end up tolerating them later on. what's the point? i can live by myself. or buy a dog or something. and i'd be perfectly happy. i like not having to answer to anyone. i like being home alone and blasting my music or deciding what to watch on tv or cleaning or not cleaning when i feel like it. i like being able to plan my schedule around me and, if i feel like it, just taking off for the weekend to somewhere. maybe in that sense, i'm selfish, but whatever. it's how i am. i just don't see the point in living with someone you don't even like. it's kinda like, why bother? don't get me wrong, i like human relationships. if my life could be like the notebook and i knew for sure that i was going to love and talk to the person i marry until the day i die, that would be one thing. but it just never seems to work like that. like, the strain of daily life and work and kids takes over. just, ugh. sometimes i want to disappear.
but anyway. enough rambling. on to less depressing subjects.
I MADE ONE ACT.
asdfghjkl, i am so super duper excited. <3 i play a moronic valley girl, and it is much to my chagrin that i can do it so well. XD kevin says he's never gonna talk to me again if i get stuck talking like that like i did with dearly departed... who would have guessed that cultivated southern accents linger? but WHATEVER BRO, you're my bestfriend, you gotta put up with me.
oh, speaking of kevin, he showed me the most awesome movie ever. wristcutters, a love story. which is not nearly as emo as you would think, but is actually adorable and hilarious and well thought out. it's on netflix, if anyone has that.
i also maybe have a job? at a mexican restaurant... the manager person seems to like me, so i'm going to apply and see where that goes. as if i need any more demands on my schedule, buthey. i could use the extra $$$ and it teaches responsibility and such. you know, all that good stuff.
oh, and coolest part of today- weightwatchers is paying off. i can fit into my dress~~~~ oh my god, i'm so excited. i've never been able to get into this dress without squeezing and sucking in, but today i just put it on and zipped up the back. <3 it made my LIFE. (especially due to the fact that i have to wear this particular dress to a disney dance with boyfriend in about 10 days... it's nice that i can get it on without asphyxiating.) but then again, it SUCKS cause we're doing a cheesecake sale in chorus, and i WANT SOME. )): cause it looks delicious. if anyone wants to buy cheesecake or awesome fluffy pretzels, you know where to find me.
so anyway, it's late, and i have a chorus officer poster to make. i might elaborate on some of this tomorrow, but we'll see.
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