Yeah, shout out to my one reader, he had that on his facebook from the future president of the united states. :D man, those two make my days. <3 anyway, sotd: country girl (shake it for me)- luke bryan. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iMZgVLc8yLY&feature=BFa&list=FLzxayHbZlkcY&index=7
i hate this song so much i actually love it. like wow.
anywhoooo. back at school... well, sort of. 6th and 7th period, at least. chorus and drama pretty much make my day. <3 i'm sure if it wasn't "necessary" to take core classes, i'd be more than happy to continue on in this existence composed of 10 library books a week (literally) and performing arts classes. hey, that's what i wanna do with my life. oh, and speaking of, guess who has herself an audition for that tv show "the voice" friday? moi. which sounds significantly more exciting than it actually is. chances of it going anywhere are pretty much nil, but whatever. i like the audition process for itself... it's a way to gain experience, and since the ratio of no's to yes's is about 10:1 at least, i like to get through the 10 as painlessly as possible. <3
in other news, i've decided that i'm going to have a blog day, and that's probably gonna be wednesday. one new blog a week. it's not so much i get overwhelmed, but it keeps me writing. <3 and if i want to blog in between those mandatory ones, well, bonus for everyone, right? the exception i'm making to this is that i want to finish this one blog i started like 2 weeks ago that i cannot seem to get the motivation to finish. i'm going to try to force myself through the last leg of that today, and have it done with. another possibility, though, is if i get a webcam that works, i might actually try to vlog instead. because typing all of this is something of a pain with my missing keys and fake nails, haha.
oh, i also want to do a book recommendation here: identical, by ellen hopkins. this book was one of the best i've read in years. stunningly written, poignant, eerie, haunting, and a killer of an ending.
but we've hit that point in my blog when i talk about something interesting. it's been forever, and i'm not sure what important topic i want to ramble on today after updating you on all of the rather meaningless aspects of my life. i think it's going to be something along the lines of unwarranted forgiveness. it's something i'm sure many of us have to deal with. someone you love hurts you. says things that never should be said about someone who honestly loves you. they argue with you, insult you. throw words that are sharp as knives towards your heart. and then, after the fight. the silence that kills you more quickly than the words did. the weeks of waiting for a call, an apology, anything. and the gradual climb back to okay. you pack away the gifts they gave you. you stop checking their facebook for a sign of remorse. you move on with your life. you think you're doing fine... and then they apologize. they tell you how wrong they were. they show every sign of changing. they appeal to you. and what do you do? you go running back. to the friendship, or relationship, or whatever it may be. let's be honest here: i don't know about you, but i've been on both sides of this cycle. i've been tossed aside in favor of other people only to come crawling back to someone who i could call my best friend. but then again, i've also been the other person. i've been cruel, much crueler than i should have been... and i've done the unthinkable, i've asked for them to look past it. and they did. and neither side feels good. i will feel remorse every time i look at either of their faces... the one that wronged me, and the one that i wronged. it's like there's no way to win. i can't say that you should forgive so easily, but i'm not saying you should make it so difficult to forgive, either. i mean, let's be honest. sometimes, you cannot help but to forgive. and when i say that, i do not mean forgive as in not harboring grudges... that's painful to yourself, and you should always try to forgive in that way. i'm speaking of the way you can forget every wrong someone's done and invite them back into your life with open arms. there are times when you are going to go against every instinct you have and do that. i've seen it. and, as much as everyone asks me to, i can't explain it. it's the age old question every one of my guy friends has asked me... "why do girls like douchebags?" well gee, you make us sound stupid. we don't. when we meet a guy, we aren't looking for that guy who cheats or lies. we don't want to date someone who's going to hurt our feelings. those douchebags you complain about? they're fantastic actors. they don't act like jerks the first few times we meet them... not even for months. they're awesome. they're sweet, and cute, and fantastic for ages before they start to act like creeps. allow me to quote taylor swift (yeah, i know she sings pop music, get over it, this is so true.): "When I was a little girl I used to read fairy tales. In fairy tales you meet Prince Charming and he's everything you ever wanted. In fairy tales the bad guy is very easy to spot. The bad guy is always wearing a black cape so you always know who he is. Then you grow up and you realize that Prince Charming is not as easy to find as you thought. You realize the bad guy is not wearing a black cape and he's not easy to spot; he's really funny, and he makes you laugh, and he has perfect hair. " it's honest. by the time you realize they're a bad guy, you already love them. and this sounds insane, but it's true. you know it as well as i do: once you love someone, it is impossible to give up on them. it's a forever deal. love doesn't go away. and i'm not trying to be insensitive to genders or preferences, or whatever... i mean, i'm pretty sure same goes for guys, under those circumstances... or whatever really. when you love someone, really, truly, love someone... it's going to be easy to forgive them. and at this point in my life, i can't tell you whether that's good or bad. maybe they have changed. i don't know.oh, and disclaimer, just in case any of you were wondering, none of this was directed at cristian... he's nothing but fantastic, as close to a prince charming as i'll ever get. i really am lucky.
i hate this song so much i actually love it. like wow.
anywhoooo. back at school... well, sort of. 6th and 7th period, at least. chorus and drama pretty much make my day. <3 i'm sure if it wasn't "necessary" to take core classes, i'd be more than happy to continue on in this existence composed of 10 library books a week (literally) and performing arts classes. hey, that's what i wanna do with my life. oh, and speaking of, guess who has herself an audition for that tv show "the voice" friday? moi. which sounds significantly more exciting than it actually is. chances of it going anywhere are pretty much nil, but whatever. i like the audition process for itself... it's a way to gain experience, and since the ratio of no's to yes's is about 10:1 at least, i like to get through the 10 as painlessly as possible. <3
in other news, i've decided that i'm going to have a blog day, and that's probably gonna be wednesday. one new blog a week. it's not so much i get overwhelmed, but it keeps me writing. <3 and if i want to blog in between those mandatory ones, well, bonus for everyone, right? the exception i'm making to this is that i want to finish this one blog i started like 2 weeks ago that i cannot seem to get the motivation to finish. i'm going to try to force myself through the last leg of that today, and have it done with. another possibility, though, is if i get a webcam that works, i might actually try to vlog instead. because typing all of this is something of a pain with my missing keys and fake nails, haha.
oh, i also want to do a book recommendation here: identical, by ellen hopkins. this book was one of the best i've read in years. stunningly written, poignant, eerie, haunting, and a killer of an ending.
but we've hit that point in my blog when i talk about something interesting. it's been forever, and i'm not sure what important topic i want to ramble on today after updating you on all of the rather meaningless aspects of my life. i think it's going to be something along the lines of unwarranted forgiveness. it's something i'm sure many of us have to deal with. someone you love hurts you. says things that never should be said about someone who honestly loves you. they argue with you, insult you. throw words that are sharp as knives towards your heart. and then, after the fight. the silence that kills you more quickly than the words did. the weeks of waiting for a call, an apology, anything. and the gradual climb back to okay. you pack away the gifts they gave you. you stop checking their facebook for a sign of remorse. you move on with your life. you think you're doing fine... and then they apologize. they tell you how wrong they were. they show every sign of changing. they appeal to you. and what do you do? you go running back. to the friendship, or relationship, or whatever it may be. let's be honest here: i don't know about you, but i've been on both sides of this cycle. i've been tossed aside in favor of other people only to come crawling back to someone who i could call my best friend. but then again, i've also been the other person. i've been cruel, much crueler than i should have been... and i've done the unthinkable, i've asked for them to look past it. and they did. and neither side feels good. i will feel remorse every time i look at either of their faces... the one that wronged me, and the one that i wronged. it's like there's no way to win. i can't say that you should forgive so easily, but i'm not saying you should make it so difficult to forgive, either. i mean, let's be honest. sometimes, you cannot help but to forgive. and when i say that, i do not mean forgive as in not harboring grudges... that's painful to yourself, and you should always try to forgive in that way. i'm speaking of the way you can forget every wrong someone's done and invite them back into your life with open arms. there are times when you are going to go against every instinct you have and do that. i've seen it. and, as much as everyone asks me to, i can't explain it. it's the age old question every one of my guy friends has asked me... "why do girls like douchebags?" well gee, you make us sound stupid. we don't. when we meet a guy, we aren't looking for that guy who cheats or lies. we don't want to date someone who's going to hurt our feelings. those douchebags you complain about? they're fantastic actors. they don't act like jerks the first few times we meet them... not even for months. they're awesome. they're sweet, and cute, and fantastic for ages before they start to act like creeps. allow me to quote taylor swift (yeah, i know she sings pop music, get over it, this is so true.): "When I was a little girl I used to read fairy tales. In fairy tales you meet Prince Charming and he's everything you ever wanted. In fairy tales the bad guy is very easy to spot. The bad guy is always wearing a black cape so you always know who he is. Then you grow up and you realize that Prince Charming is not as easy to find as you thought. You realize the bad guy is not wearing a black cape and he's not easy to spot; he's really funny, and he makes you laugh, and he has perfect hair. " it's honest. by the time you realize they're a bad guy, you already love them. and this sounds insane, but it's true. you know it as well as i do: once you love someone, it is impossible to give up on them. it's a forever deal. love doesn't go away. and i'm not trying to be insensitive to genders or preferences, or whatever... i mean, i'm pretty sure same goes for guys, under those circumstances... or whatever really. when you love someone, really, truly, love someone... it's going to be easy to forgive them. and at this point in my life, i can't tell you whether that's good or bad. maybe they have changed. i don't know.oh, and disclaimer, just in case any of you were wondering, none of this was directed at cristian... he's nothing but fantastic, as close to a prince charming as i'll ever get. i really am lucky.
Aw haha ur so sweet :) you are so amazing :) and im the lucky one remember?! ;)
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