random scenario off of an online short story idea site. a girl is writing a letter to her boyfriend. she loves him, but they've been getting into huge arguments. explain why.
dear boyfriend or maybe not.
this camel's back is rather close to breaking.
i am rather sick of spending all of my time apologizing, when it doesn't even matter to you. make up your mind- you want to be with me or you don't. i'm so sick of being strung along and snapped at. i understand that maybe you're stressed, but you've been taking it out on me. don't tell me it's okay and then turn around and yell at me for something else. i'm not five years old, and it's not your job to correct my behavior; behavior that isn't even bad. I'm laying this out straight. you said you didn't know if you cared. about me, about us, about this. well, i think you better figure it out, and fast. i'm done with getting my feelings hurt, because you're so obviously embarassed by me or you just can't tolerate the fact that i have an opinion. i love you, and you know it- you can be so sweet, and so smart, and so funny when you want to. you do so many little things- like noticing the color of my eyes, or reassuring me when i get insecure, or offering to come in early to study with me for a hard test, or letting me win little arguments. i can't tell you how much my heart races when i look up and catch you glancing at me, and you give me that embarrassed little half smile and look away, or how special i feel when you give me little sideways compliments. but that's all starting to take a backseat. i feel like all you ever do anymore is nitpick at me and argue with me, and it hurts. it feels like you're telling me that i'm not good enough for you. the bad times are starting to overpower the good. the staring at the phone, wishing for a text, and yet dreading it, because i know we aren't going to end the evening happy. i'm done with it, love. I can't handle this. the argument last night was so bad, i didn't even know if we were still dating when i came to school today. but i sucked up my pride. i said i was wrong, i apologized. you said we were fine, and five seconds later proceeded to yell at me for the next sentence ot of my mouth. i can't take this anymore. make up your mind. do it quickly, because i don't want this to be over. i want to stay with you- you're the first one to make me feel something in a long time. but if this is how it's going to be, i'm leaving. if i'm just not good enough for you, i'll let you be so you can find someone who is. i'm sick of dragging this out. if this isn't better soon, i'll have no choice. i love you forever, but i have to respect myself too. if you want me in your life, you're going to have to just find a way to put me there.|
yours,
the girl whos heart you have.
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